I live in shadow....

     I live in shadow

                    Dappled light

                              Hidden sun

          Mountain looming just beside

                    Dark and gray

          I live in shadow

                    Wondering

                              Questioning

          Never certain, signs deceiving

                    Answers eluding

          Menace darkness reaches

                    In my shadow

                              Watching, eyes unseen

          Unknown future, bleak

                    Distant web

                              Fear reigns

          I walk in shadow

                    Obstacles hidden

                              Sudden and sharp

          Every corner a stumbling block

                    A maze, no way out

           I live in shadow

                    Slamming door

                              Locked and broken

           Stuck here in shadow

                    Unmoving, unseen

                              Locked and broken

          "Say to this mountain,

                    'Be moved!'"

          My faith must be so small!

          I live in shadow

                    Fear, self-loath

                              Lies believed

          If You are Light

                    Why am I so alone

                               In shadow?

          From where will come

                    My release?

                              Must I stay here, Lord?

          I know You see

          I know You care

          I know You can...

          But what if I cannot?

     This was written at a time when I could not see God's Hand and I forgot.  How easily we forget.  The theme of this poem is fear, despair, loss.  In Christ, we need not live in shadow.  The very power that raised Christ from the dead is available to us.  (Ephesians 1)  It is when we focus on the good, the positive (and there is ALWAYS a positive) that God's peace comes to us.  (Philippians 4)

     Did I find release from the darkness?  Well, is God good?  YES!  If you find yourself where I was, look up, His Hand is within reach.